Hi again everyone

It's been a while since my last message in here so I figured it was about time that I updated again!

From now on I'm going to try to be more positive which will be hard some days as I've got psychotic depression but I'll do my best!

Today has been good because I've had a couple of spirits come to me, I've discovered a new chat room and I'm going to, if I remember, go and have a look around Facebook in a minute so keep your eyes open for that to appear!

I was at my in-laws yesterday so couldn't do this then so I'm doing it today instead 

11.10am - I've just found out why I was banned from the PsychicLiving group... apparently I broke a rule that I didn't even know existed!  The woman who emailed me about it this morning said that I was only sending in readings and asking for money for the readings I sent in which is the exact opposite of what I was *trying* to do!  The readings I send through the groups will always be free 'cos no-one asked for them, it's just the ones that are asked for that I'm charging for!  Ah well, not to worry!  I'm just upset that no-one told me what I was doing wrong before I got banned!

11.30am - I've just forwarded the 2 emails I sent onto the woman who emailed me but I doubt I'll be allowed back in! 

3.00pm - I've just had one of my credit card company's on the phone to say I owe them £300 and I just can't afford it! 

11.54am - I've been awake for about 4 hours and I haven't had a negative thought yet!

2.18pm - Still no negative thoughts!

7.12pm - Nope, still no negativity!

7.49pm - My first negative thought of the day!  I posted about a spirit being raped and murdered and William Meadows on the psychic group has just asked me to ask her if she can see a light anywhere and she can't!  How do I help her if she can't see the light?!?

9.30pm - I've just asked for testimonials to add to the site but I doubt anyone will! 

9.45am - I've been online for an hour and only sent 2 names through the psychic groups I'm with which I got last night and there wasn't even a message to go with the names!  What's wrong with me today?  Why can't I be open to the Other Side today?  Humf!

11.30am - Woohoo and *groan*  I've just been given a message from Frank (that's the woohoo) and there is someone at the door but I really can't be bothered to go down and see who it is! (that's the *groan*)

1.45pm - I've just added 3 pages and 2 affiliates to my site but nobody visits me here so what's the point!

9.41am - Well, I've been awake for about an hour so far and haven't had a negative thought yet!  Woohoo!

2.38pm and still no negative thoughts!  I guess yesterday was just a bad day!

4.13pm - I've just changed the look of my site... you hate it don't you?!

5.16pm - I've just had another confirmation message and taken another message off the site so I'm still not being negative... today has been a good day 

Hi again everyone

A said to write down all my negative thoughts for 5 days so I'm starting now!  Come back every day and see what I've got to say!

11.14am - I wish I could get this song out of my head!  I'll put a CD on now and hope that does the trick!

11.20am - I don't know what I've got this on my site for... it's not like anyone visits me there!

12.15pm - *sigh* just feeling glum and haven't got a clue why!  

1.02pm - I've just refunded someone their money 'cos they weren't happy with the reading I gave... what if other people feel that way but don't say anything? 

1.07pm - That's really got to me y'know?  I am only a beginner so I'm still learning but I want everyone to be happy with their reading! 

1.40pm - I sent out a message to the Psychic groups I'm on with the name Bertolli and 3 people have made fun of him so he's really angry and upset now which has upset me 'cos I don't know how to make him feel better! 

1.47pm - I can be a really whiney b***h can't I!  lol 

4.33pm - Ooh!  3 hours without being negative!  lol

Hiya everyone

I don't know what I'll say or how to use this thing so bear with me while I learn!  lol

A suggested I start a journal so that's what I'm hoping this will turn into!  lol

Now to save this and see what happens!  Wish me luck!